If You Only Knew

by Theodicy

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Ivan – Vocals
Ian – Guitar
Steve – Guitar
Prib – Bass
Martyn - Drums

1993's 'Wound' demo lead to the 7” single 'Succumb' released on GWB Records in 1994 and many gigs around the UK. In 1995 the band recorded drums and 'guide' guitars for 7 songs at Springvale Studios, but having left with a rough mix on cassette the band drifted apart shortly afterwards.

25 years later, three original members gathered to complete one of the 'lost' tracks. Overdubbing on to the original recording, 'If You Only Knew' retains the outstanding un-edited 1995 'take' by Martyn and Steve, accompanied by contemporary performances from Ivan and Ian.

Producing a quality recording from a dusty tape from 1995 has been “very challenging” says Ian, “but it's a fitting tribute to Steve, and I'm chuffed to get something out from that session – at last!”

Essential for all fans of 90's death metal

All profits will be passed on to the charity CALM.

lyrics

Everything is turning black, the colour has drained from my life
There is no point, my existence on the edge of a knife
I have to put on my mask, I cannot be weak, my life is a lie
But I’m hurting oh so much, if you only knew the pain behind my smile
Try not to hide your feelings or lock yourself away
It’s not weak to talk, let out what you need to say
If you only knew, is this wretched life worth while?
If you only knew the pain behind my smile
Being dead is the final option, it’s not the only one
Don’t seek solace in abusive things, only more pain until your done
It’s so easy to get caught in the tunnel and can’t see another direction
But seeking help from those that care can guide your way with there affection
If you only knew...if you only knew

Leaving this life and escaping the hurt, is sometimes the only way
Euthanasia should be legalised
Mental health needs to be addressed, too many people are missing assistance
We must all do our part and persevere, don’t back down from any resistance
If you only knew, is this wretched life worth while?
If you only knew the pain behind my smile

There is more to life than death, you're just blinded by the darkness
You can get light back in your life, keep fighting to avoid that darkness

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released October 16, 2020

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Theodicy England, UK

Ivan – Vocals
Ian – Guitar
Steve – Guitar
Prib – Bass
Martyn - Drums
Formed Oct '92. 93's 'Wound' demo lead to the 7” single 'Succumb' released on GWB Records in 1994. In 1995 the band recorded drums and 'guide' guitars for 7 songs but having left with a rough mix on cassette the band drifted apart shortly afterwards.

25 years later, three original members gathered to complete this 'lost' track. ... more